Nerves.

I hate my competition nerves. I hate my expectations. I hate that I know I could have made it, if it hadn't been for the nerves. I hate that I had a good feeling before I entered the cage. I hate that I've done well on every single practice lately. I hate the disappointment on the edge of the ridiculous. I hate that I'm the good number two. I don't know what I'm going to do anymore, considering season's over and I'm not on the team anymore. The season hasn't been as good as I wanted it to be, considering the huge improvement on practice and the horrible achievements in meets. But I've experienced so much more than just defeat and victory with this team. I've learned so much because of them. I'm going to miss them a lot. Really. There's an other team I'm going to practice with and compete for this summer. It's going to be good. Better than what this season has been. Have to get over those nerves. I hate that I didn't make it. I hate the fact that I deserved it. At least I got three awesome t-shirts.

Wonderdream.

Beginning. Midpart. Ending. I honestly don't know where I am. All I know is that when I started the beginning I wanted to be by the end, and that now, I don't want to reach the end for everything in the wide world. I don't really want to wake up from this wonderdream. Not yet. And it's OK, since I think I still have a while left before I wake up.

BellaBlog 2.

"I tried to make the woman dance, but it didn't work."

"I tried to convince the insane kid to STOP taking pictures of me..."

"... It didn't work."

All the Same.

Such a strong message. One of my favorite songs. Made my day so much better.

Epic.

BellaBlog.

The neighbor's dog is here, and she's so big! Compare to the last pictures I posted of her, and you can really see a difference. Right now we're all tired, she's been playing with my sister, and I think she had a good time the entire night. Me myself still have jet lag from traveling trough six states in one week, but it was an amazing trip I won't forget. I still feel bad for having two blogs and only keeping one up to date, I think I have to reconsider this english-blog-project of mine. We'll see.